Be a Man of Godly Integrity

I pray for the lord to give you strength every night in Jesus's name 🙏

I always admit when I goofed, screwed up, made a mistake, went the wrong way, did the wrong thing. Wish more people did this whether male or female. My thoughts and prayers are always there when you need it. May our Lord give you the strength and conviction to persevere. 🙏🤗

@Brian Thank you my friend. I have been praying for you too...and by faith, I see you overcoming those things that are trying to hold you back. I truly do. I appreciate the prayers! This is so hard on me

@David Thank you David! God is kicked out of the lives of so many. They don't even think of God and His ways. Women sliding around like Jezebels trying to take advantage of and destroy men. Men sneaking around, with their priorities all messed up. Both genders, like you said, being used the Satan to destroy others. Often times they don't see it or want to see it, because the "reward" they think they are getting satisfies them enough. I've asked the Lord to release me from the commitment I made, but I haven't felt Him allowing it yet. And I wonder if it is something along the lines of Genesis 50:20. He has used the man to shine the light on areas I would not have seen, had I not gone thru the hell I've gone thru. So God knows it all. I'm willing to do what He wants of me. If there is peace to go (and I've been given all the worldly reasons to divorce), then I will go quicker than you catching a fish! Thanks for the prayers, David! This time next year may look different for me.

@Lisa very well said. I've been there in an abusive relationship. She was verbally, emotionally, mentally and physically in that it affected my health. After three years of it I sincerely and wholeheartedly believe He gave me the ok to leave and save myself. He spoke to me in a way "You are too good to stay and suffer. You have the strength, will and freedom to leave." I'm the happiest I've ever been and that was 12 years ago and not once did I ever look back, or regret it or say What If? You'll know when it's time.

@David Thanks David. The strength and insight into how people are and the intense LOVE that God has for us, is absolutely mind blowing. I know I don't know it all, but it is humbling what He allowed me to go thru, just to turn it around to make me stronger and understand better. I'm His prisoner.🥰. I'm sorry you went thru that also. Your jaw would drop at what I've been through. I've never been punched, so don't think that. However, a bloody nose blown on me, shoved so many times I can't count, food thrown at me, choked, my head squeezed so tight my skull popped, my kids called horrible names (they never witnessed anything, thank the Lord, because the Lord took them away from me because of this husband of mine; who thank God is not their father). I could go on and on, but won't. I feel sorry for him, because he is so lost and so full of rage. I talked to his ex wife, she experienced the same, but not as bad. Anyway, the Lord is my Shepherd. He guides me (the reason why I am in Ohio is because of the Lord instructing me to return). He protects me (He forewarned me before I married the man in MT, about the dangers, but I didn't know it was connected to him until after the fact). I am more at peace than I've ever been and I am so thankful that there are no unresolved wounds that I carry around. The peace and the freedom are so beautiful! I only wish all could feel it. I'm so thankful...way more than I could share. People's souls mean more to me than anything else. When the devil tries to stir me up, I go off and praise the Lord. When the husband cusses me out, I pray for him. When I'm told I'm a dime a dozen...I think of the Lord hanging on the cross, and see Him looking at me....no one is a dime a dozen. Satan is a liar. So I go out on my tough days and hand out Bible tracks and compliment people...letting them know how very valuable they are. Not enough of that in this world. 😉 Well, this was a personal mini series, lol. Not many will bother clicking...

@David ......to read the comments. I appreciate you, Brian, and the others I count as true buddies to me. Thanks David for the back and forth chat. I think I'll go take this new dog out. She is pretty good so far. 🥰

@Lisa glad to hear she's coming along nicely.

@Lisa thank you for sharing all that and letting me get to know you a little better. So glad the boys never witnessed any of it. No one witnessed her abusing me, except for her daughter who always took her side. There's no way in Hell I'd be able to be here on GoWild because in her mind I'd be trying to get every female here no matter how old they were. They same with hunting and fishing, those were just ways to f**k every female out there. Just because her exes did it i was guilty of it just because I was a guy.

@David It is so hard on the mind to take the bait of Satan and think everyone is going to go out and cheat on you. I went down that path, David. Well, he has always kept everything away from me. I couldn't check his phone, office, computer, bank accounts. He is severely wounded. I lived as a "roommate," reminding him that it was not God's ways, in how he was handling out marriage. Now, it didn't matter if I said, "You can look at anything I have. You can have all my passwords, you can talk to anyone I talk to." Everything was open and still could be. No one that is hiding anything would go for that. And ya know what David, it is ok now. He can lie, cheat, do whatever Satan leads him around by the nostrils to do. I won't have to answer for that, he will. So in turn his soul means more than anything he could ever be here on this earth. Your gal definitely was wounded. Thank God I've been set free. Her daughter naturally protected her Mom. Her whole family would probably. His family and even one member of my family believed everything he shared. Why is that? He is a narcissist,and it isn't just me saying that. So a new element to learn about and work thru. It bothered me for a long time, others loving on him and treating me like some sort of villian. It still does a bit, but the truth sets me free...and one day (not soon enough. Ha) they will see the truth too. No bitterness was allowed to take root...because as soon as I saw it, I ripped it out and forgave everyone, started praying for them and peace came. I got my Bachelors in Ministry, and my focus has to always be looking at people thru His eyes. "Has to be," because I love Him more than anyone here on earth, and His ways are not our ways, that is for sure.😊

@David When we are first married to Christ, we submit to His ways. When we stumble, as He knows we will, we thank Him for His grace, don't we!😊

@David I removed some of my comments. I am an open person, obviously. Lol. Some people could get comfort and help thru my experience. Maybe if I ever get this book finished, God will lead the right people to it.